Do you want a screenshot with that?

I am not sure if it's a problem, I'm not sure if it's an accident. All I know is I had nothing to do with it, and somehow I'm going to be dragged in the middle, even with out me doing anything. That's how it's been so far.  Like when my ex tried to...

I forgot to send them a gift.

When I was dating Ellie, I had to become accustomed to family Christmas mornings spent in a cheery environment. Her family would spend mornings in the livingroom, the pellet stove on full blast, and breakfast cooking in the background. Cups of hot...

Too Tired; is mercury in retrograde a thing?

I am so tired. My new phone doesn't work so I am hoping that I can return it. I probably won't be able too but I am hoping, with fingers crossed. It also didn't have a fucking charger with it, just the wall plug which is confusing. I wasted $75 on...

be polite now, come on.

I work in a very public office. It is share with about 4 or 5 other people. Sometimes people talk, idle chit chat. Sometimes someone might play a Christmas tune at a low volume. One woman brings her children in and lets them watch the TV in the...

Sorry.

I'm sorry. I still regress sometimes to the old ways of letting my temper get ahead of me. It's easy to do and feels familiar, so it feels safe. But then when I do it, it's like slinking into the sewers of my mind and laughing when other people are...

I might still be in middle school :-(

Today is a glorious day, mainly because it is Friday. Friday means 2 days where I turn off my phone and don't listen to people who email me relentlessly withs stupid, stupid things. Today is also the day I get to bring the donated toys to the office...

The Holiday party

The Holidays are such a rough time. The lights on the trees, the toys for young tots, it all seems like a far away memory and you just can't grasp at what made it magical as a child. Now it's endless office parties where you have to pretend to be...

The Holidays, Cookie Parties, and ripped tights.

It turns out that I have to come up with 60 cookies tomorrow. I have too show up to someone's house and I'll get 60 cookies. I hate cookies, I actually don't like cookies. I hate cookies so much, they're too sweet. 

avoidance, late nights, and cigarette burns.

I'm avoiding my own father. He has all this time off due to a saw accident (he is okay though), he can't work with his hand yet and he is only getting paid a certain amount of money. He's around constantly and absolutely hates the fact that I try to...

The boy I never liked.

To the boy I never liked.  With blue eyes and a charming smile, He always knew what to say To make me smile right back.    He's super high right now, And just said the wrong thing, Because I'm the monster.  He's stupid. 

old friends, new friends, why do you leave me out?

So I spent Friday night in Rutland. So did all the other VISTAS. Only one catch, I wasn't with them, or invited out with them. After years of being left out of social situations by people I try to be nice too, you think I would be outraged and hurt...

Move her in; and cleanse yourself of me.

I feel weird now. You just had to tell me that you're new girlfriend is moving in with you. I'll be honest, you knocked the wind out of me for a second, you're little trick worked and I actually felt sad. Until I remembered what living with you was...