We are not done.

At my age, 23, I have realized that I am not done. I have not met all the people I am meant to love. Or hate, I guess. But on a more positive note, love. Life is still moving and I'll meet more people I grow to care about and keep in my life. Life is...

sad girl

I like sounding sad sometimes, to people who don't know me well. Only in conversations. I'll say something out of the blue that captures their attention and makes them stop for a moment, going over what I just said. Sometimes they'll carefully ignore...

me, myself, and someone who reminds me of me.

We have the same eyes. The same shape and color, large and captivating. The eyes take up half of our face and are at fault for making us look years younger than we actually are. They are the same hue of blue diving into green, like an ocean captured...

beauty and sex, I thought you were my friend first.

"I always consider you my friend first," is what you said, after we got done making out in your car, our bodies pressed together to forget the loneliness we both felt. You were stroking my hair, all sweet and intimate and I could smell your deodorant...

Visible

I am visible. I sit in the corner of the office, hair louder than my personality typing on my computer trying to look busy.    My boss whispers to someone to say hello and goodbye to me, I hear her. She is concerned, she knows I've got no...

Invisible

I sit in the corner of my office, and no one seems to notice I am there. Conversations fly over my head, and no one so much as glances in my direction. Even my own boss tends to see right through me, even when I walk in the room.    They are...

red

Her world is about to fall apart. The skies are on fire and her eyes reflect the blazing that her life has taken on. She bows her head, flame colored hair blowing in the wind and all that is good crumbles around her.    But to you, all you see...

Depression

I just realized I won't be able to return to Rutland for two weeks, and I am stuck in Bennington working with people who don't like me... The depression sunk in again and I want to leave the building and call it quits, I've only been back for a day....

insexperienced

I of all people would consider myself slightly inexperienced at sex (insexperienced). I've only slept with three people, and one of those people was only for 30 seconds before we decided to just give up. I've done sexual acts with five people...

okc

I met this guy on okcupid, and added him on facebook. I do this constantly....wait, let me rephrase that. I do this if I meet someone on that site and have them add me on fb because it's easier for me to talk on there, and easier for me to know more...

work talk

The way people talk is so irrelevant and rude. Joking about a man secretly being a drug dealer makes you shift in your chair and frown. The realness of the situation haunts your brain as memories pop of your mom being careful around her past...

Jump

Have you ever suffered? Been at the brink of your sanity,  The way the edge of the world Seems to teeter and totter as you Stand on a ledge.    Sometimes you think about jumping.  It would be simple,  Lift your feet off the...

The Idea I Fell In Love With

I am in love with an idea Not a person.  The person isn't even real, Not even in human form.  Just an idea that tickles my brain,  Then makes me smile.    The idea is an artist, With paint brushes stroking my Forearm and...

Jordan.

Jordan and I lived in the same apartment complex. It was welfare housing, where they stuck all the poor people in the shittiest part of town. Camoflauging the yard with a pretty green picket fence, and a playground for the kids. Make it look nice,...

The Time Traveler

I saw an older woman yesterday, she was making her way through Rite Aid. I looked up at her in a moment and she looked back at me and looked, well, shocked. Her eyes widened comically and she stopped walking, staring at me for a split second.    ...

my job...

So a homeless woman just walked into the office and is refusing to leave. I tried to tell her that this place is a place of work and that we don't have showers and she insisted on trying to use the bank bathroom to clean up, I had to tell her that she...

3pm slump

It is 3pm and I've had no caffeine today. I've had a lot of water and a little bit of food. I'm tired and the day has about an hour left...    I've gotten no work done. I've spent the majority of my day staring at my computer and wondering what...