no

I don't want this site to go away. I went onto the other site, and it's fine. Lots of the same people, lots of posts, even find myself writing. But what am I going to do without thoughts? I am going to miss it so much. I keep coming back, knowing soon...

One Last Time...good bye

Thoughts has been a website I've used since I was still with my ex girlfriend, only 18 years old. This site has been a place for my pain, my growth, my friendships, and conflicts. I didn't think a website would actually become something sentimental. I...

adult

Why is it that being an adult seems to drain many people of their patience? No one wants to hear the long version of a story, instead they get tired and snap at you to hurry up or give you a look, a mean look. Impatience becomes the new thing, and...

leave.

She never left. She takes up a space in my head, sending off an alarm every time something reminds me of her. A certain smell, the way someone smiles at me, the sun shining a certain way. She. Never. Left. She is indeed a part of me now, sinking under...

random thoughts.

How much caffiene can a tired, anxious girl drink in one day? Lots. Lots and lots.    My mom used to ask me why I loved my ex girlfriend and even though I did love her, I could never come up with an answer, I always sat there in silence, and she...

Old Habits.

This morning when the loudest and most obnoxious alarm went off at 6am, I jumped up quickly. There was someone with me in the bed, the room was dark, and instinct took over. I only knew I had to turn the alarm off before she got angry and grabbed me,...

IT ALL WORKED OUT

After about an hour of back and forth last night, with Jack, we finally figured stuff out. Or rather, he did. He was upset because he thought we were more than just casual fwb. I was upset because he was hounding me about seeing other people.    ...

casual, or no?

You had to go and bring up what we are, you had to tell me you don't want me seeing other people. You had to say, "not trying to date you right now," and then go on about how you like me and want to see me. You had to get mad.    All I did was...

16 again

When I was 16 I was really shy. I had a few friends, and was generally known as quiet (not a lot has changed...) I also had a pretty happy perspective on life. I was innocent too, in terms of like...sex. I entered a technical program called Human...